Introspection

Things about me that I have never understood:

*Why do I dislike myself so much?
*Why do I feel that others are simultaneously threatening yet somehow necessary?
*Why am I not comfortable sitting down when I am in large crowds?
*Why am I so often troubled by my own thoughts?
*Why am I so much more concerned with the happiness of others than that of my own?
*Why can I sleep 6 hours and get up fine, but at 7 hours or more I struggle greatly?
*Why can I feel so many conflicting emotions at the same time?
*Why do I have to try so hard to control my emotions?
*Why do I get mildly depressed when I see an attractive woman?
*Why do I so frequently want to be alone?
*Why don’t my second knuckles have any hair on them?
*Why do I instinctively distance myself from others?
*Why am I so intimidated by women?
*Why don’t I cry more often?
*Why are people so susceptible to bias?
*Why do I feel like I am so different from other people?
*Why am I so nice to people who don’t deserve it?



Other things that I have never understood:

*Why does the word “Weird” not follow the “I before E” rule?
*Why can’t electrons have different charge values?
*Why is it that so often the thing you want most is the thing you’ll never have?
*Why do rain drops form at such a seemingly constant rate?
*Why is carbon so much more versatile than other elements?